Lignum Vitae

I wish I understood life, but I don’t. I just don’t. I don’t understand people. I don’t understand politics. I don’t understand women. I don’t understand Republicans.

I don’t even understand myself.

So many things I want to do, but I usually do nothing. So many people I’d love to meet, but I avoid the public with due diligence. Would love to be more directly involved in politics, but I’m too honest, and I can’t stand shading the truth with self-serving inflections.

The happiest days of my life? I have nothing to show for it.

The worst days? Cover my heart with hidden scars.

I don’t really want much of anything, other than time, more time. A little place of my own where I can sit and think unmolested.

I honest to God can’t believe that Trump is still president, and as horrid a job as he’s done, almost all of his supporters will vote for him again. It’s a mass hypnosis, the stuff of science fiction.

But it’s here, now. It’s real.

I’m not a man in need of much these days, thank Providence, but I am in dire need of motivation, desperate need of a reason to keep going. I know that it’s almost criminal to squander these resources at my fingertips. But I’ll be damned if I can figure out how to make it work.


A touch of romance, maybe that’s what I need. Just overruled my inner cheapskate and joined a dating site for $149.00. It ain’t much…but it’s worth a try.

Lignum Vitae loosely translates into “The Wood of Life.” It is a very hard wood, said to have magical properties, and that Merlin’s magic wand was made of it.

True confession: I don’t have much these days, at my age, but I still have wood.

And that’s a good thing.

Rebirth, Rebuild, Renew

Paul Gauguin

About 90% moved to the new place in Las Cruces. Feels good. Hopeful. Makes me want to change this website format. Keep the WordPress for pontificating and bitching, but make the main site something different, something more fun.

Was just starting to meet new people and find new places when the fucking C19 virus hit, and now it looks like it’s going to be with us for a long time to come. Not weeks, months.

I can’t begin to verbalize the frustration I feel.

At any rate, as long as the heart is pumping, there is hope for a brand new day.

Anger Loses, Humor Wins

I need to lighten up.

All of this, everything that’s happening, is far beyond my control. Nobody could have foreseen the depth of Trump’s corruption or the abyss of the GOP’s integrity.

Nobody could believe that even after all of the success we’ve seen with legalized marijuana, there are still conservative holdouts who would rather treat pot smokers like criminals rather than capture the vast amounts of money the new business would generate.

Nobody seems to understand how there has yet to be a single person who walked into a pot dispensary and walked out with anything other than pot. No speed, no coke, no pills, etc. Just pot, just like people who walk out of a liquor store only leave with liquor.

A lot of people are stupid and mean, and that’s just how it’s gonna be.

What seems to work for me is pretending that I am an alien living on a hostile planet, and keeping a low profile isn’t cowardice or apathy, it’s just common sense.

So go ahead and fuck up the world, you stupid cons.

Nothing’s gonna stop you anyway.

Timely Observations

CNN is CN Shit. Pretty blatantly trying to stir up a riff between Sanders and Warren, being sure to villainize Sanders as much as possible, based on pretty flimsy evidence.

This won’t be forgotten, CNN, you dirty fucking assholes. Who is the piece of shit that owns or runs CNN?

Behold John T. Stankey, the CEO of WarnerMedia, which owns CNN.

Suck a bag of dicks you fucking cunt.

Here’s a phrase you might want to chew on: Antitrust Laws.

60 Million Morons

Having the devoted support of sixty million morons is nothing to brag about, but then again, that’s how Trump stays in power.

They say things like: “Is he not the most politically correct? Sure, but who really cares?”

Or malarkey like this: “The pompous and self-righteous who rise up and claim the Right has become evil can’t seem to deal with the reality that all political groups and parties have become that.”

No, they haven’t. The GOP and right-wing media are liars. Liars are evil.

There is no complimentary comparison to the left. Not even close.

You can’t talk sense to idiots. They think they have the right to believe what they want to believe, sans facts, and screw the rest. And I suppose that’s true.

But their misbegotten beliefs won’t do a thing to stop this ship from sinking. And while our country may not be sinking, the ship’s taking in water.

Our Country is Upside-Down

Here’s Trump smiling like a prick next to his “right hand man” from Russia.

The Impeachment circus continues today with the Democrats being sensible and factual and the Republicans throwing tantrums and flat-out lying about everything.

It hurts to watch it.

The GOP honest-to-God is trying to include Hunter Biden’s name in the impeachment documentation.

Those fuckers are dead-on crooks and apparently nobody in the United States can stop them.

God help us.

The Cons are Winning

I didn’t make this. This is a real graphic from a real website run by anti-communist Trump supporters.

If the mafia ever wanted to start a political party, it would look exactly like the modern-day GOP.

While a majority of Trump supporters are clearly not mafioso, they are every bit as committed to the cause as any member of La Cosa Nostra would be to his “family.” To convince a working-class Trump supporter that his leader does not have his best interests at heart is a fruitless endeavor.

It’s like fist-fighting a case of the flu. It can’t be done.

We’re dealing with a phenomenon that I don’t think the world has ever seen before, not that I know of, and certainly not on this scale. It’s a monstrous case of mass-delusion or a very subdued mass-hysteria.

Trump supporters love and support Donald Trump. They believe that he is an upstanding, God-fearing man and nothing that anyone says or does, and no amount of condemnatory proof, will convince them otherwise.

If Donald Trump said that Nancy Pelosi worshiped Satan, a full 40% of the United States—Trump supporters all—would believe him and repeat his accusation stridently. Gleefully. And if they didn’t believe him, they wouldn’t care. They’d laugh and repeat the claim anyway because there is nothing that they love more than “triggering the libs.”

But it gets worse: a small fraction of those idiots would take his words literally—seriously—and they’d conclude that it was their Christian duty to save America from Nancy Pelosi by any means necessary, and it’s not hard to figure out their method of choice.

Every day I strive to think of a way to get to Trump supporters. I know that they won’t listen to reason, so I’m trying to think of a baser mode of communication, but I’m always at a loss.

One has to appeal to their bigotry and ignorance to convince a Trump supporter of anything. If you don’t take that first step, they’ll ignore you outright.

And that’s why the cons are winning, because they have no trouble pandering to bigotry and exploiting ignorance.

The progressives can’t do it because that would violate the first rule of being a progressive.

Unfortunately, if we’re ever going to wake up the Trump supporters, we’ll have to learn how to manipulate them better, and about the only way of doing that is to somehow affirm their bigotry and validate their ignorance.

And I swear to God, that’s a magic trick I try to decipher every day.